Today is David’s birthday.
When he first moved to Indonesia, we threw a birthday dinner for him in his absence. I printed a life-sized photo of his head onto some cardboard and we dressed up the back of a chair like he was there. I made him a cake and we lit candles and sang happy birthday and sent him the video to show him how we were getting on without him.
Now, we’re getting on without him forever and I would do anything to be able to send him a message to tell him how much I miss him. To tell him how watching the love my girls have for each other sometimes makes my insides ache. To get a reply “Oh, come on Flossie. I’m alright babe.”
He would have turned 32 today. I need to tell you how old he would have been. I don’t know why. I’m trying to remember to be grateful to have had such a wonderful man for a brother, instead of feeling cheated for not having him now. So for entirely selfish reasons, here's seven reasons why the world is still a good place today.
3. I spent the weekend in the company of good friends, old and new. We laughed, we ate fancy pants food and, because the kids weren’t there, we finished entire conversations.
5. I found a good second hand upright freezer on gumtree, so we can finally turn the chest freezer with the irreplaceable seal off. Hear that hissing sound? It’s not coming from the chook house, it’s our power bill deflating.
6. My childless BFF, her fella, Bearhands and I booked an impromptu weekend away to Hamilton Island yesterday. We leave in a fortnight! Bearhands is excited about playing a fancy pants golf course up there and the idea of spending an afternoon lazing around a swim up bar has me frothing at the mouth.
7. Lucy the calf continues to thrive. She has adopted Ant as her mummy. It's all a bit cute. My soon-to-be Sister in law filmed this little video of Ant and Lucy mooing at each other when they moved Lucy between paddocks at the farm. I dare you not to smile!
So that's it. Seven reasons for me not to mope around today. Seven reasons why the world is still a good place despite missing the beautiful birthday boy.